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2012-01-12T22:41:00.001+08:00

哭不是因为难过而是因为不甘心
不甘心因为做了那么多而倒头来什么都没有
不甘心因为你们凭什么能得到一切
真的凭什么？？？？？？

我们不是做得不好，而是很尽心地做
非常尽心地做而到头什么都没有，什么都不是。

因为你们，我们受尽了苦
而你们却在享受因该属于我们大家的成果。
哈！你们不会觉得一点点的不好意思吗！？

踩着其他人的头而爬上你们现在的地位
并不会显得你们有多厉害，　而证明了你们有多么的虚伪。
真叫人作呕。

真的得感谢你们和你们那么敬爱的老师，
让我学习这世界不是靠努力就有成果而是要这么踩着其他人的头而往上爬。　

希望你们能站得久，　看得远
因为我不相信不劳而获又假的人永远都是赢家

2011-10-22T12:37:00.003+08:00

timetable is out.

and i have NO freaking school on MONDAY!!!!

so there won't be any excuses of having any Monday Blues.

Friday can also be a self declare holiday because i only have APEL from 12-1pm.

DAMN DUMB.

so i'm kinda praying that it wont be a weekly thing.

please....

had a haircut with 2inch of my hair gone.

feeling lighter than ever.

2011-10-12T12:35:00.002+08:00

i came across A1-Everytime on the radio yesterday.
i remembered i used to love this song very very much :)
and ever since i heard it again on the radio after hundreds of years.
i've been playing this song for more than 10times.

freaking old school.

i went back to school yesterday for the shadowing briefing on 19OCT.
office wear and means i'll need to buy a new pairs of shoes for it :)
which i have been eyeing to buy 1pair for quite some time.
and finally i can buy it :)

my holidays will be over in about ONE week time.
shit! i always feel that i haven been having enough rest
and the shitty thing is that school is starting soon :(

DAMN!?

2011-10-01T15:39:00.002+08:00

look at the way Doojoon sings, how can you not fall in love with him :)

I've been watching this same MV for dontknowthehowmanytimes.

haven been doing anything constructive.

just rotting my holiday at home :)

2011-09-20T20:01:00.005+08:00

i totally cannot remember exactly when was the last time i blogged,

but i think it doesnt matter anyway.

MP/SIP is finally over.

19weeks of shitty 9am-5.30pm clock in and out schedule.

i totally don't enjoy a single shit of it.

especially the meeting or discussion with wilson.

i'm having my 1month & a week holidays now.

i have totally no plan of doing anything.

but i just hope i can seriously rest well :)

2011-08-05T21:49:00.001+08:00

有一种尖锐在心里搁浅
寂寞时特别强烈呼吸刺痛纠结
有一些笑脸公式化出现
计算出快乐假面是痊愈还是上了麻醉
放了自己放了回忆
放了世界不过如此而已
多少庆幸多少风景
再放了之后才清晰
放了自己放了回忆
放了那配不上你的伤心
你该诠释的不再是悲剧主角的残影
而是新的自己
你有过期待也有过等待
满腔热血只无奈
现实报废浪漫
人群中进行孤单时复习
你的坚强很争气
只是怎么学不会忘记
放了自己放了回忆
放了世界不过如此而已
多少庆幸多少风景
再放了之后才清晰
放了自己放了回忆
放了那配不上你的伤心
你该诠释的不再是悲剧主角的残影
而是新的自己
放了自己放了回忆
放了世界不过如此而已
多少庆幸多少风景
再放了之后才清晰
放了自己放了回忆
放了那配不上你的伤心
你该诠释的不再是悲剧主角的残影
而是新的自己
当那幸福的号志又一如往常的亮起
笑着放了自己

2011-07-30T20:43:00.005+08:00

i was doing my blogshop stuff
and suddenly i have the urge to blog
because i just realised i haven been blogging for quite some time.

it's the idon'tknowhowmanyweeksofschool.
at one point of time, everything took a change and got better
but suddenly, it took a bad turn and everything came crashing down again.
i thought i survived through all the shit and i finally found peace
but never i expect it was actually the calm before the storm.

others never understand, and even they do,
they know the least and never will they know how it really feels.

i was doing my schedule, and found out that i have 7more weeks remaining.
and is hard going through all this shit.
i never wanna pray that it will get better;
because i'm afraid that it will get worst than it can really be.

Friday used to be the day i'm looking forward to.
but after every project status review meeting every friday, things got heavier.

i don't know, but i'm perhaps too tired to say anything more.

2011-07-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

thank god i survived through the first week of school.

i had a bad and long week
and was dying to end it.
i never thought it would be this difficult, feeling so freaking helpless and speechless

i'm standing on a line with the option of giving up or letting it to eat me up slowly.

at least, there is 1day of the freaking first week of school that makes it not so bad.
celebrated my birthday in school with my classmates
and had dinner with the guys @ EHub.

thanks for the wishes, cards, cake and presents.
i really receive lots and lots of love that day.
which really helps me to at least forget about all the shit that i've been going through for the first week.

ask me what i wish for,
and i'll tell you i wish that i can go through all this shit of 12weeks smoothly and peacefully.
and please pray for me.
thank you.

and i'm praying hard for myself too.

2011-06-25T18:37:00.004+08:00

23 June;

went to Tanjong Pagar Train Station and book a ticket to Malaysia;
by train to Malaysia, only a few hours trip
but is a rather different experiences though

we met a Japanese Man at the station and
for the whole trip to Malaysia, he was together with us.

we only spend afew hours in malaysia,
actually the whole purpose is not about going Malaysia,
is of taking the train :)

took tons of photo.
but i'm just lazy to upload all.
hahahahahaha

2011-06-22T13:26:00.003+08:00

is the last week of the 2weeks break.
and sweet enough, i'm sick.
seriously! thanks for that.

did i mention i chop off 1.5inch of my hair?

actually nothing much with the 2weeks break,
i just met up and catch up with my friends then stay at home and rot :)

i watch All My Love, and the song is so freaking nice!!!

2011-06-11T20:28:00.002+08:00

the 2weeks break is finally here.
i'm totally in need of the break.

school was a total hell for me,
i used to love friday alot.
but ever since i have progress meeting on every friday morning to report about our project.
friday became a total hell.

i swear millions of my brain cells are killed
everytime i have meeting with WS.
he NEVER understands, and what makes thing worst was that he NEVER listens.
well, he did listen, but NEVER allow you to finish what you wanna say.
its always a tedious job to communicate with him.

i've having a headache since yesterday
right after we met with WS to discuss about the project,
Damn it.
sleeping for hours today doesn't help.

now, i hoping them things are working well till Sept.
i'm praying.

2011-06-04T22:31:00.002+08:00

i couldn't exactly remember when was the last time i blog.
i don't know if its a good thing that i didn't blog for this long.
but exactly because nothing real good or bad *touchwood* is happening.
because life is more like a routine that nothing else can break the cycle.

when life is more like a routine,
we tend to not see what exactly is happening around.
but when we spotted something totally out of the routine;
we pay so much attention on it.

like a cute shy boy i spotted in school :x
and it makes me laugh at myself everytime i see him;
i told my friends to look at him then tell them how cute and shy he is.
that makes me feels so dumb about myself.

2011-05-15T17:03:00.002+08:00

3rd week of school,
everything is more like a routine now.
and everything is on track,

its all about...
doing project, waiting for breaks, lunch, attending meeting every week.

2011-05-07T23:02:00.002+08:00

i attended tim ORD yesterday with sam,
had dinner with sam
then home sweet home.

talked to him on the phone till 1plus,
but i slept @ 2plus
and this morning, i woke up @ 10plus
to accompany my grandparents to the polling station.

i had afternoon nap,
and now, my whole family is still sitting in the living room,
waiting for the polling result.
they're more anxious about the polling result more than my Olevels result.
hahahahaha

2011-04-29T22:27:00.002+08:00

first week of school is finally over.
god damn, it was really a bad week, not quite
but a hard week would better describe it.

not because i have tons of things to do,
but because i really have nothing to do.

9AM - 5.30PM with
break @ 10.15AM-10.30AM
lunch @ 12.30PM-1.30PM
break again @ 4.15PM-4.30PM

i'm given industrial project from ST,
and this is the first week but i've no idea what i'm supposed to do.

the first day, i was told to do ASP.NET
and the very next day, i was told to do java.
DAMN, its a total heaven to hell kinda feeling.
honestly, i have no interest for java nor jsp.

hopefully, i'm given ASP.NET to do after the meeting
was i think will be scheduled on wed.

2011-04-23T15:21:00.002+08:00

I was plain bored;
Mason Tan was playing his facebook
and i drag him to photobooth with me.
i was being random.

2011-04-22T22:51:00.001+08:00

to get me an iphone...

2011-04-21T11:48:00.002+08:00

seriously yah!
my msn is being blocked
because of spam email of some idiotic email;
like my dick is big and whatever naked women bathing video -.-
honestly, its these idiotic spam email that blocked me from my msn.
totally what the fcuk.

i resorted to facebook now to stay contactable;
and this is my only way.
because i've been telling people that i don't need one;
i've blogger, webs, twitter and msn.
but see!? msn fails me.

what a damn shit!

2011-04-20T21:07:00.003+08:00

dinner @ Ikea yesterday with sam,
each of us had 15meatball and 3chicken.
my cheesecake is still in the fridge now.

school starts on Monday,
i'm abit reluctant of going back to school,
it starts@ 8.45AM.
ohmygod.

2011-04-14T13:33:00.002+08:00

chopped off half a inch of my hair
and 2 inch of my fringe.

school holiday is only left with 8Days.
in a blink, 2months of holiday is over just like that.
i did nothing constructive.

i'm blogging at this time now

because i'm real bored.

2011-04-10T14:17:00.002+08:00

i couldn't remember when was the last time i blogged.
but anyway i don't think it matters.

i had a not-so-exciting-but-a-normal-routine week.

couch at the sofa and watch my drama.

go online- edit the pictures and post them up for sales; reply email.

pack the clothes and stuff them in the envelope then mail them.

met sam for dinner @ ThaiExpress and
chilled @ Starbuck then start gossiping about people,
from those we know, to the cars on the road,
to the people walking on the street.

that was all i could remember doing for the week :)
not a boring week, but a comfortable one.

2011-04-02T11:39:00.002+08:00

i'm dead tired.
really tired.

have been in and out of the hospital for the past few days;
because grandma is admitted for lung infection.
thank goodness she may discharged on Monday.

i'm sick too :(
went to the doctor yesterday

2011-03-28T15:54:00.003+08:00

my throat doesn't feel right;

and i have a bad feeling that i'm falling sick soon :(

goodness...

2011-03-22T23:31:00.004+08:00

@1130pm. i'm feeling nothing but bored.
i think i'm gonna sleep soon.
because i really have nothing better to do.

2011-03-19T19:08:00.002+08:00

Monday &Tuesday.

i attended the Android Training from 9.30Am-5PM.
goodness. i seriously can't imagine me doing it for my 3.1

Wednesday.

i met jervois, hongye, yichen for steamboat.

yes! finally we got to meet each other.

chilled @ starbuck then home sweet home

Thursday.

i freaking woke up @ 10plus,

because i'm freaking excited about my result.

somehow as expected as how i should do for it.

but still i'm happy with it since i expected it :)

then i watched- Letters to Juilet and Charlie St Cloud.

Friday.

i met sam for movie- Prefect Rivals.

a funny show. worth watching.

had dinner @ the asian kitchen then chilled @ starbuck.

i enjoy people watching and comment about those people.

hahahahaha,

i find joy in doing those nothingbettertodo things

2011-03-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

@1110pm, i'm a minute away from being missed by someone.
random, just a random saying that when you look at the clock and if its 1111,
it means that your're being missed by someone.

i went to Suntec IT Fair;
goodness, the crowd is ohmygod,
but i think its still not the worst.

so i got myself a new camera :)
say cheese.....
hahaha. i know i'm freaking out of my mind.

Today; i received 3 miss call from the school,
to inform me to attend a course on monday and tuesday,
i saw the timing and i go OHMYGOD.
its freaking 9am-5pm
puffffff. that goes my 2 days of holiday.

2011-03-10T09:22:00.002+08:00

@923am, i'm blogging.
weird timing but is alright.
cause predict that i won't have the time to blog later.

Tuesday:
i met sam at bugis and we had movie- My ex.
a rather expected-gonna-happened horror movie.
not that kind of thai horror movie that i'm expecting the horror level to be.

had dinner @ the asian kitchen.
asean and asian.
i pronounce it as asean when i first saw it.
hahahahaha,
wat a dumb me.
the asian kitchen serve good food. Nice try :)

bused to suntec for the bao.
but it was almost sold out,
so we went back to starbuck to chill empty handed.

2011-03-05T20:40:00.003+08:00

是你說過分手以後要祝福大家

怎麼聽到你的喜訊我忽然靜下

我紅了眼睛黑著臉再不斷講話

你看在眼裡想到什麼何必問我

怎麼啦

你還好嗎

你的快樂與我無關我就不快樂

我也失去繼續偽裝朋友的資格

我竟然希望她不夠好那就好了

你說不定會因此對我一直牽掛

這個我還值得你愛嗎

我虛偽我慚愧我嫉妒你幸福

你這個傻瓜

不要逼我說謊話愛一個人是佔有　一點都不偉大

我醜惡我自私我認了看著你容不下他

蹋地死心原來出於私心我也覺得我好可怕

所謂祝福原來只是在爾虞我詐

關係昇華只是欲望垂死的掙扎

我甚至想過萬一你們開始吵架在我們之間就能留下一條尾巴

這個我還值得誰愛嗎

我虛偽我慚愧我嫉妒你幸福你這個傻瓜

不要逼我說謊話愛一個人是佔有一點都不偉大

我醜惡我自私我認了看著你容不下他

蹋地死心　原來出於私心我也覺得我好可怕好可怕

2011-03-03T16:41:00.002+08:00

@4.42pm, i'm feeling so damn sleepy,
although i freaking woke up @ 10plus.

i have no plans for today,
just watching videos and lay around.

have to go back school tmw for some training,
and i totally have no clue what is about and how long is it.
wish me luck that i'll survive through.

2011-03-02T22:59:00.001+08:00

when you never expect anything,
then you will never feel disappointed.

2011-03-02T18:03:00.002+08:00

yesterday,

i went kbox with sam
and we had dinner and chilled @ nydc.
then sam came back home with me and slack @ my house.

Today,

i had lunch @ singapore flyer food trail.
the place makes me feel so back to the 70s'
nice and cool place to eat.

i had a bad flu but a good cry,
i can't remember when was the last time tears flows down like no one business.
i'm fine now. seriously.

2011-02-26T15:28:00.002+08:00

i met sam and tim yesterday for din tai fung.
then we had movie- 127Hours,
i like the show although it gets abit boring halfway through,
and both of them almost fell asleep when i was so freaking concentrate on the movie.

then slack @ starbuck,
it was freaking crowded.
everyone is burying themselves under those books
while i sit there, enjoy my 2months holiday.

and i've plans to kbox next week :)
yeahhhhh...

i slept at freaking 3am this morning,
both dear friend of mine text and call me at freaking 10plus.
to tell me their plans for tomorrow.
ohmygod. thanks ah.

2011-02-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

i've finished studying for my Itech,

wish me luck tmw....

2011-02-23T13:51:00.004+08:00

the pictures were taken way back long ago.

celebrate Mason Tan birthday.

i haven been studying for the past 2days.

Monday;

went bugis with my mum, aunt and sam to get my mum her shoes.

lay around and watch tv the whole day,

Tuesday;

i watch tv and slept the whole day.

Today;

i woke up @ 11plus and the first thing i did was edit and upload all the new arrivals,

and now @ 2.02 i'm feeling that bit of guilty for not studying.

so i'm gonna off to study after this post.

2011-02-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the last day of school.
the holiday is here just in time.
end all the shitty stayback and doing of all the project.

met sam yesterday and we went to marina,
went all the way there and creative close @ 5pm because they had dinner and dance,
DAMN.
in the end, i got myself the MP3 at Harvey Norman, Suntec.

had KFC and chill at starbuck;
was dead tired when i reach home.

Now, i'm free for all the shitty project,
my nose playing on me,
its open and flow like a freaking tap.
SHIT.

2011-02-14T14:05:00.003+08:00

its valentines day.
SO!?
i have 1quiz;1 end sem test; i demo tmw,

i accidentally deleted my demo codes while reformat my thumbdrive.
i'm feeling fcuking shitty now.
DAMN... what was i thinking when i was looking at the files before reformat.

did i mention, my freaking mp3 is playing dead with me.!
another shit.
WHAT THE FCUK!!!!

i'm feeling fcuked up not loved on this valentines day.

i need a tight hug, whisper in my ears; telling me everything will be alright.

2011-02-13T18:54:00.002+08:00

1 quiz and 1 end sem test on tuesday,
i didn't study a single shit.
i slept my whole sat off.
watch video after i woke up.

i promised i will study tonight.

sam and time came over for new year visiting.
random...
tim called and said he coming over,
and indeed both of them came.
slack, watch tv and lay around.

2011-02-06T19:06:00.003+08:00

no mahjong for this year's new year.

sianx.

granny wanted to play poker instead.

which is soooo soooo random.

hahaha.

but still won abt $50 in total for 2days game :)

i woke up @ 9plus,

to help my aunt for the steamboat lunch gathering.

damn tired.

i'm gonna sleep soon.....

2011-02-05T21:05:00.003+08:00

today's the third day of chinese new year.

well.... nothing special for CNY anymore,

i'm been doing and finishing my project since yesterday.

it's CNY equals to long holiday

but no reason for a good rest.

feeling damn sleepy.

haven been sleeping well :(

my desktop is dead for real,

i cant get it boot, got to get someone to repair it since it's still under warranty.

hopefully, i can get it done soon.

i'm feeling damn sleepy.

2011-01-30T14:11:00.003+08:00

i'm dead tired,

i haven been sleeping well.

all thanks to those project,

and my throat is not feeling quite right.

i have a very bad feeling that i'm falling sick soon...

i'm done with EWA Project all thanks to the helps my friends are giving me,

if not, it wont be able to make it.

i'm partly done with my ASP,

and for MDAD, i'm still struck with it,

when the deadline is 2weeks time.

Chinese new year is next week,

i'm not feeling excited about it,

because of the projects which makes me feel so damn tired over.

and my desktop choose to fail to work when i on it,

i don't know a single shit what happen to it,

but i seriously pray that it will be well after a while.

please. i pray...

meet my new friend...

2011-01-15T21:15:00.002+08:00

i have been doing EWA project coding since morning.
i've finished, but i'm not sure if it works.
SHIT.

i got my EWA paper,
and teacher make a calculation error that sort of 10marks.
ohmygod.
and he told me "oh, ya ah, i saw your result and couldn't believe you got a just pass"
i was thinking, "Hello! you mark the paper and calculate wrongly, just admit it"
so thankgod, i check and got my dearest 10marks back.

but honestly, even i passed EWA term test,
it didn't give me any sense of motivation to do my project,
because i still don't understand a single shit.

i have 3project on hand.
wish me luck.
i can foreseen that i would need to stay back till 10pm in school again.
DAMN. tsk tsk tsk....

2011-01-12T19:29:00.002+08:00

EWA is a total shit,
we need to submit the completed project by week 15
and we've not done a single shit,
not because we're not not doing our work,
but that we really don't know how to get it started.

2011-01-07T23:20:00.003+08:00

the first week of school ends here

with both my legs feeling not mine,

i stand from 2-6pm for the open house.

i hate the freaking gay boy.

because he makes me not have the lanyard that i wanted,
shit him.
idiotic guy.

alright, let's conclude the first week of school.
i've gotten all my result.
i'm pleased with all, except ITech which i was expecting a rather better grade for it.

Term2 is a rather short week,
i'll need to submit my proposal for the project next week
and i'll need to get all the project start working and doing it.
when it comes to Term2, it feels like shit.
i can predict that everything will start all over again.
sigh.... tsk.... pray for me.

okie, shall stop here,
i'm off to do my project proposal.
and i wonder if i can finish it by tonight?!
it's 11.26PM

2011-01-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

met sam and the guys for the counting down
in the end,we spent the last moment of 2010 in the car,
cause we had too much for dinner and everyone was feeling sleepy.
but me and sam ended up @ starbuck to chill
what a boring new year.

sam came over my place to chill yesterday,
talk, walked around and drove to tmart just because she feels like eating something.
bought mac to my place
and she ended up eating less than 3pieces of nuggets and had some ice cream.

school starts on tuesday,
and i still not quite ready for it.
tsk

2010-12-31T14:03:00.003+08:00

it's the last day of 2010,
don't you think the time flies like nobody's business.

i don't know,
but i'm not missing 2010,
neither am i looking forward for 2011.
it's weird ya, but i really have no idea.

i'm sitting infront of the computer,
and thinking what have i really done for the past 1year
then only project, assignment, quiz, exams came to my mind.
ya, what a year.

but i still i hope 2011 will be a better year :)

2010-12-30T18:33:00.004+08:00

met sam and tim for dinner at Ikea yesterday
we had 30 meat balls, 12chicken wing, a dark chocolate cake and a cheese cake.
then a random malay lady gave tim a plate of 10 meat balls.

omg, tat was damn full.

walked around ikea
then home sweet home.

2010-12-29T12:05:00.003+08:00

i had long talk with people,
with different people.
i enjoy them very very much.

i always think, friends should really sit down and talk,
not talk for the sick of talking,
but those talk that makes you think deep and feel for it.
it will makes you think differently after those talks.

2010-12-26T12:18:00.002+08:00

2010-12-25T16:53:00.001+08:00

Santa send me a new best friend :)
Merry Christmas

2010-12-24T22:19:00.003+08:00

it has been a real busy for the past few days,
finished with the economic newspaper article,
imagine cup proposal,
and ASP.Net proposal and the GUI with syahrul.

but i'm glad i'm left with 1more week to do nothing,
because i really need a good rest.
damn tired.

my favourite christmas song,
it doesn't matter who sang it,
but the lyric is nice anyway.

2010-12-19T16:08:00.003+08:00

i was looking at the calendar

and in like 12 more days, 2010 is coming to an end.

2010 is a fast one for me,

too busy with so many thing

especially school.

i'm tired inside out at some point of time,

not physically but rather mentally and emotionally.

met shitty people that makes my blood boil;

and really nice people that me just wanna smile to them whenever i see them.

too many things is happening everyday.

i see the change in myself over the year,

and i wonder if it is good.

then i realised that it doesn't matter as long as i'm comfortable and happy with it :)

i see people come and go.

some stop by and shower some concern and left,

some left and didn't return.

some left, return but the feeling wasn't the same as it used to be.

some came back, return to the original position but the feeling never change.

2010-12-18T21:01:00.003+08:00

Term test is finally over.
spell H.A.P.P.Y

i practically have no much problem with the papers
except Eweb, which totally pissed me off,
i pray for nothing but a just pass please.

the lecturer who set the Eweb paper was walking in front my table
to go to the back of the class,
i have the urge to "accidentally" push the table and knock his dick.
i swear. that was how pissed i was with the paper.

Term break is something i really need now,
i so freaking tired from school,
my period celebrate with me for the term break is here.
what a spoiler.

2weeks of break,
how much i hope i can sleep the whole day and watch my dramas,
but i have project and assignment lined up for me to complete,
what an ass.

tsk tsk tsk....

2010-12-17T19:09:00.000+08:00

2010-12-15T12:50:00.003+08:00

love is not measured by how much you have done.
but is about how much the person feels.

i hold back my tears as you told me how much you loved me,
because i couldn't feel that much of love.

2010-12-14T18:38:00.003+08:00

Saturday,
Economic paper was alright,
but it was way different from those that i have practice.
i was freaking paranoid.
at night, went to attend my cousin wedding @ Furama Hotel.

Sunday,
i was supposed to study for the ITECH paper.
studied abit and then i slept my whole afternoon off,
wanted to study at night, but i watch the tv the whole night.
felt freaking guilty for not studying when i went to bed,
in the end, i still doze off.

Monday,
Thank God the paper was rather easy,
all that i have studied came out :)
woah, what a relieve.

Tuesday,
i totally have no mood to study,
because is EWeb,
i got a feeling the paper is gonna be a killer,
just like how the quiz was.
no motivation at all.
slept my whole afternoon off,
woke up then start buying stuff online.
the books are infront of me, it's opened; but i'm not reading it at all.

shall see if i have the motivation to study it tonight
but i doubt i have any.

怕不怕被拒绝
怕不怕被省略
你怕不怕被沦落在宿命中妥协
当真爱宣告从缺
骄傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎
尽管你抱歉,忏悔
真心一旦坠跌就不能飞
别指望我谅解
别指望我体会
爱不是点头就能挽回
快乐或伤悲没什么分别
心碎到终点会迎刃而解
别指望我谅解
别指望我体会
爱不是注定要填你的缺
太多的是非
来不及杜绝
更不想依恋这残缺的美
残缺的迂回

2010-12-05T14:26:00.002+08:00

Thursday
leter/report writing test during orgcom lesson
the test make me feel like i'm sitting for the O levels paper exam.
i'm totally nervous and paranoid.

Friday
lesson start @ 8am and end @ 12pm,
but stay back till 4pm to get the my part of the project assignment done.

Saturday & Sunday,
i stay home the whole day,
eat, sleep, online and watch tv.
i enjoy the day of staying home and doing nothing,

i'm tired from school.
this coming Sat is the economic mid paper,
and then the following week will be the term test,
i'm not quite ready for test,
but i'm totally looking forward for the 2weeks break.

2010-11-28T15:54:00.003+08:00

stop asking why my nails are pink and blue in each hands
the reason is that i run out of pink when i'm done with 1 hand.
simple.
stop telling me that i should make it alternate colour for the fingers.
arghhhh.
people see my hand and start asking me why i have it done different colour.

2010-11-27T14:40:00.002+08:00

Wednesday.
i was excited for the Microsoft Innovation Centre Visit,
i was expecting it to be a big building of its own.
but it turned out to be a office within a building.
haha, what a disappointment. yap.

Thursday.
my worst day ever.
my day started with ASP Lab Test,
i did my preparation at home, and i knew how the whole thing should be done;
i know all the things that i should know.
BUT i screw it up badly by being confused what is a fcuking column and row.
i know it a total what the fcuk.

then comes the Eweb Quiz,
i somehow have some confident in doing well for the quiz
i studied all the question that the lecturer pointed out.
and in the end. all the question is way way different from all i've studied.
another what the fcuk.

Orgcom lesson was a total shit!
that teacher talk too much, rushed through the lesson,
expecting us to do everything within 30mins,
with her taking away 15mins with her talking.
thanks for the rush.

attended my cousin wedding @ Hyatt,
got home at around 12plus to 1.
had my makeup remove with my eyes closing.
bath and hit the sheet.

Friday.
woke up @ freaking 7am for MDAD @ 8am.

Mahjong with lyeyee, zhengyuan and steven.
too tired, my brain wasn't functioning well enough for the game.
left lyeyee house and the guys went for dinner.
reached home around 11plus.

Today @ 3.01.
i'm yawning as i'm typing this post.
i think i'm going back to sleep.
i'm deprived from a good sleep.

2010-11-22T15:16:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 10am,
and i'm feeling sleepy now.

i tried studying for the ITech quiz yesterday;
i couldn't concentrate,
in the end, i went to exfoliated my face and took a bath.
then i feel all comfortable and sleepy.

2010-11-20T23:36:00.003+08:00

my christmas wish is to get my new LG Phone,

i know is way to early for christmas,

but my phone contract expires on 24DEC.

and i've been eyeing for the phone for freaking long.

i'm worry that the phone will be gone...

tsk *touch wood x3*

please grant my wish

and i promises i'll be good :)

i bought myself a new wallet,

because i suddenly wanna have a slim wallet.

and i wanna get myself the Etude House member card.

2010-11-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

a person don't get to enjoy the best of both world,
you either think for yourself or care about the feelings of others.

it's tough making a decision,
but if you never take the first step to make changes;
you will only be pushed to move forward and ended up in difficult circumstances.

2010-11-17T12:58:00.002+08:00

i did my economics report till 2am,
i woke up at freaking 9plus because my nose is block.
@ 1pm now,
i'm feeling so freaking sleepy after lunch.

Life is like a multiple choice question…
Sometimes the choices confuses you, not the question itself.

2010-11-16T23:22:00.002+08:00

ASP.Net quiz is almost a breeze,
except for the < > part which confused me
because until now, i just get messed up with which is greater or less than.
tsk tsk tsk. What the shit.

economic lecture is forever like wars,
when there is so many notes to be filled in for the lecture.

i had Mac delivery for dinner
and i'm feeling so sleepy while waiting for them to deliever it.

2010-11-14T14:56:00.001+08:00

Friday,
i met up with YingXian and HuiQi for dinner.
it's a random and sudden plan though;

they're friends that even you never meet them for thousand years,
but you still can talk them to about all the things.
we listen and update about everything around us,
not update exactly but gossip instead.
we complain about school work to people to how it was like in primary school.

Saturday,
i've been doing my EWeb powerpoint the moment i woke up.
watch The Slingshot last episode.
that was how i spend my saturday.

Sunday,
sort all the pictures for the blogshop since morning,
and i'm feeling so sleepy as i'm typing this.

2010-11-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

it's a public holiday but for sure, i didn't enjoy any bit of it.
i have been doing my assignment since morning.

2 research question with 7 sub questions,
and i'm still not done with the report.
felt really tired halfway and i went to take a nap.

now, i'm doing ASP.NET graded lab,
because i'm tired with doing MDAD research.

2010-11-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

the second week of school ends in a blink,
but the torture part of every thursday evening
is having to sit there for 2 hours and listen to the orgcom teacher talks
i think that is the worst part of the week,
because she really makes people fall asleep with her irrelevant talks.
otherwise, school have been more than pleasant.
(exclude those assignment due ...)

2010-11-01T16:49:00.002+08:00

first week of school is over just like that
i didn't enjoy a single bit of my weekend
and the second week of school starts.
freaking idiotic.

2010-10-31T01:57:00.003+08:00

@ 1.57am

i'm still doing my project.

i totally have no idea if i'm doing the right thing.

because i'm not given any topic and guideline on what to write for my report

and based on the topic, it's a fcuking more than 5 page project.

shit, i don't feel like giving a fcuk about it anymore,

i'm sleepy.

2010-10-29T20:46:00.007+08:00

what ruin a person is when they point at others
and tell them that they were the ones in wrong
and not knowing that they're in the wrong in the first place.

these people makes you wanna pity them for awhile.
however they're also the people that makes you wanna slap them at their face;
and scream your lungs out at.
i know its contradict, but you can't denied that such people exists.
because i have such classmate,
which i used to call her friend, but then i realised, i was wrong

that classmate of mine NEVER see herself in the wrong,
she sees the wrong thing All the time,
she always see herself treating others kindly and honestly,
when she never realised that those kindly and honestly of hers are actually fake.

who sits in front of you and have lunch with you,
and twit about you being a faker? -.-
i pity her friends that treat her really nicely.

***
you know the different between friends and classmates?

Friends are people that you talk with, have lunch with, gossip with or even as simple as a smile and exchange a few words when you see each other. They're people you feel comfortable with even if both of you are not as close. You won't mind doing them a favor.

Classmates are people that you'll never bother with, whether they come to class or not, it's none of your business. And if they ever ask you to do a favor, you'll spare a thought about it and think whether you can canNOT help. they're people that you won't even smile when you see them in the lift. Seriously.

2010-10-27T17:24:00.004+08:00

when you go into poly or even the working society,
you'll realise how realistic people will they be;

for me, i don't think being realistic is a bad thing,
because i rather kill myself then being killed by someone else.

if you're not cruel and determined enough to make a decision for yourself,
you'll end up in a very difficult situation which will kill you slowly,

sorry for making the world sound so ugly,
but i always think that this is how the world is.
however is also the people that makes the world like this,
but they never see that they're the reason the world turns out this way.

***
my dear friend;
if your personality and attitude were good, *not self-assuming*
we would have stand with you;
however you never understand yourself better.
but always think that you were the best -.-
the truth is you're NOT.

2010-10-25T15:38:00.003+08:00

no lesson on monday,
but i woke up @ 8.15AM to accompany my mum to the eye centre.

@3.40pm,
i've feeling so freaking sleepy,
and i'm having a slight headache,

school officially start tomorrow
and it's a 10am-7pm day
Puff. what a long day on the first day of school.

2010-10-23T20:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday;
i had pasta for dinner with jervois and yichen
then i had my bubble tea,
yichen commented that he didn't want pearl for his milk tea because pearl are unhealthy,
i can imagine that the customers standing behind us should be *rolling their eyes*

today;
i stayed home and watch the tv for the whole day
@8.58pm
i'm feeling so freaking sleepy

2010-10-22T15:20:00.002+08:00

finally, i've gotten my time table,
i've nothing to complain about,
because it's a 4 day school for me,
with a off on Monday;
which give me no reason to complain about having any Monday Blues

i got into the CDS that i have choosen.
thus, i'll not complain even lecture end @ 7pm :)

2010-10-21T20:09:00.003+08:00

@8.09pm
i'm back from bugis with 2 new pairs of shoes,
i had Burger King and my favourite Barley Drink.

2010-10-21T15:28:00.004+08:00

@ 3.29pm

i have the sudden urge of going down to bugis to buy some shoes,

i'm having this sudden urge of buying a new pair of shoes since yesterday night;

just a random urge, i know...

i had a sneak preview of my time table for tuesday,

yap, Tuesday. because the sms thing didn't work for me for monday,

so i totally have no idea of what is the time table like for me for monday.

tuesday.

lesson start @ 10am for me,

and end @ 7pm, all thanks to the CDS.

but thankfully i have the CDS i wanted to get into :)

@ 3.34pm

i'm logging off and heading towards bugis

2010-10-20T16:40:00.002+08:00

i'm waiting for my time table to be out,
i'm not expecting for any day off for the week,
but i'm hoping that lesson can end as early as 1pm.
then i'm thankful for.

the almost 3months holiday is soon to be over in a blink.
i'm still not quite ready for school yet.
well, even if the holiday is for a year, i'll never be ready for school.
because school spell boring.

2010-10-16T00:06:00.003+08:00

i wanted to get my hair a brown dye,
but the moment i got my fringe got cut,
the thought making it brown disappear.

my dad loves my hair,
and he kept on saying "you should have it done long ago"

i met sam yesterday for The Child's Eye in 3D.
well, i was expecting alot more of the 3D effects in terms of the ghost suddenly appear in front of your eyes, but it's not of the case. Sigh.
and to make thing worst, i have a bunch of noisy kids sitting behind me
where they keep on saying "i know i know, the ghost is gonna blah blah blah"
i totally feel like standing up and tell not to watch since
they know what the whole thing is about.
tsk tsk tsk. totally spoiler.

then we had pasta,
and got some stuff from Etude House.

today, i met up with sam and tim for dinner @ parkway,
i swear i won't wanna go parkway anymore,
it so freaking far,
and i'm totally dumb enough to walk the wrong lane towards parkway.
idiotic.

2010-10-08T21:21:00.002+08:00

i dislike friction, i swear.
i never understand how to solve a friction question even it's P5 work.
that very much explains how bad my math is.

i have decided to get my hair cut on monday :)
because i've been thinking of cutting my hair since yesterday.

i'm feeling sleepy after doing a tough math question from MasonTan;

2010-10-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

yesterday, i woke up and saw MasonTan sitting at the sofa,
and i asked him; "uh! why no school"
then he said ''uh! it's children day"

then i realised,
it has been more than 7 years since the last time i celebrated children day.
ohmygod.

2010-09-25T19:46:00.002+08:00

i almost cried when i was talking to my aunt about my result,
i really felt so freaking upset,

so i ate 5 Ferrero Rocher straight in a row;
my aunt bought me 1 surprise bag to cheer me up.
it filled with little toys and cute stationery.

alright i'm been treated like a sad small little girl.
and i like the feeling of how i'm being pamper :)

2010-09-24T12:46:00.003+08:00

i've gotten my result,
and i'm feeling upset about it.

although i somehow expected that my GPA will drop,
i didn't know i will feel so affected by it after getting it.

i make it sound like it's nothing big deal,
but i'm feeling it's a big deal now.

it's a stupid of 0.02,
and i feel so WHAT THE FUCK now.

i think i will choose to improve the reality
rather than lower my expectations.

2010-09-23T23:24:00.008+08:00

result will be release tomorrow,

and i'm not quite ready for it.

not ready to see how my GPA drop :(

i think the first thing i'll see in my phone when i wake up in the morning,

is the message which contain my result,

how shitty will it make me feel for the whole of my FRIDAY time.

shit, i shouldn't have opt for the sms service to receive my result via sms.

i'm kinda regret.

but there is nothing i can do now.

***

i took some random boring photo with photo booth

and i don't understand why i look so kinda bright or white with photo booth.

but it's alright,

because i'm still lovin it.

hahahahahahaha

2010-09-21T16:43:00.000+08:00

i did my nails,
and i had KFC.

i'm abit sleepy now,
and the time now is 4.44PM.

2010-09-18T15:15:00.002+08:00

i went bugis for a short shopping trip with mum,
i wanted to buy some stuff,
it ended up that i bought mum her things and i totally forgot mine.

crapping up at home and watching dramas,video and replying emails
this is how i kill my time.

you'll learn to lower your expectation when you meet the reality,
and realised that everyone changes in different situation.
it's your choice to accept it or not,
but the thought of only being remember suddenly isn't a nice way.

2010-09-14T01:33:00.003+08:00

i took 3 hours to pack my whole room
i only used 1 big black garbage bag for all my rubbish.

i wanted to paint my nails,
but i was so freaking tired after the cleaning up.

i had ThaiExpress and BubbleTea yesterday.
more than happy.

2010-09-10T17:01:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday HongYe
they're celebrating by eating steamboat today, and i'm staying home to blog.

and Yichen is freaking idiotic!
because i text him at almost 9pm,
and it's 10.03, he has yet to reply me,
only busy dating with her girlfriend.
*boxin*

***

i got this dinosaurs light thingy as a free gift,
i don't know what is the purpose of it,
but is rather cute :)

i spent a few hours of the day to rearrange
my icon and dock design of my macbook.
and i'm happy with how it looks now :)

yap, shut up.
i know i have nothing better to do.

Do you ever want to go back?
I remember being sixteen and everything just seemed much easier and simpler.

2010-09-09T16:01:00.002+08:00

what can be more happier when exams are OVER.

actually i'm quite upset cause i couldn't finish the networking paper,
but i manage to answer all the question that i know of :)

went shopping after exams
and my legs are super tired from the walking around.
but eventually we got what we wanted.

2010-09-04T23:13:00.002+08:00

i did nothing about studying today.

i woke up at around 10 plus,
watch my tv korea drama till around 2.
had lunch,
and i went to my grandma's bed to sleep.

i totally have no motivation to study,
which i don't know why.
and i have a bad feeling that my GPA will drop for this semester.
which i supposed it explains why i have no mood for studying.

i have no confident that i will do well for the 2 paper,
because it required tons of memorising of the theory.
and i know my brain is small;
i can't find so many inside. and i get messed up after awhile.
so i thought of only studying till like sunday or monday,
then it will be kept fresh in my brain till wednesday.

i can't wait for the exams to be over.

2010-09-03T22:57:00.001+08:00

i didn't study anything today,
and i doubt i will study tomorrow.

thought of leaving everything to sunday and monday;
cause i'm actually tired from all the studying.

2010-09-01T22:42:00.003+08:00

i was sick since sunday,
bad flu and now led to bad cough,
a feeling of coughing my lungs out show how bad my cough is.

thanks, i'm sliming down because of being sick,
and i've visited the doctors thrice for 2 weeks,
which shows that i'm freaking weak now.

exams is in less than a weeks time,
i'm still not done finished with studying networking;
memorizing all the wireless theory.
Please save me,
burn those note into ash, pour them into water and drink finish it
does it help in having all the notes in my brain!?

i have planned out actually;
to finish studying networking within this few days,
then i can re-read all my wireless note so i can refresh my memory.
but i'm slept 3 days off without studying;
all thanks to the medicine.

okie, to be fair,
i didn't totally slept 3 days off,
i went back t school for 2 days
and had 2 hours each of wireless and networking revision lecture.
though that 2 hours of networking didn't help much.

***
omg, luo zhixiang is super cute,
i dreamt about him being my boyfriend :x
totally didn't wanna wake up from sleeping.
i don't mind sleeping forever.

2010-08-26T20:23:00.002+08:00

My Life Lesson: 101
Someone once told me love isn’t everything. And I agreed.

What did I know of love and truth and light? I thought. Its all candyfloss and sunshine, for those couples at parks, fast gimmicks for Valentines Day, a cure for loneliness, those cheesy love songs on radio.. Its because I didn’t know love. I won’t say its something I know of, because you never really know whats hit you till you’re squashed flat on the ground, your heart beating faster than that generic pop song, and your head’s an absolute train wreck.

Nope. Love is an enigma. Its the reason so many songs are about love, its the reason we choose to write, sing and talk about it. Its our fascination. And its all around us, if we’d just stop to smell the roses (no pun intended). Love, is indescribable for me. It is a joie de vivre, it is a pulsating happiness, it can be a sad realization, a misty eyed goodbye.. it is the moment you realize everything is actually beautiful. The wrinkles, the odd twist in a smile, everything, is really, incredibly, beautiful. And yet, it saddens me at the same time. In the kind of way a movie based on real life would. Its bittersweet and tells you “This is life”. Love, for me, is like butterflies in the rain.

Its not understandable, but its beautiful.

What is it for you? :)

2010-08-25T17:43:00.002+08:00

monday;
met michael and the rest for steamboat,
supposed to meet at 2pm,
but at 1.55pm, i'm still at the bus stop opposite ngee ann;
going to the interchange to train down to bugis.

tuesday;
went out with my grandparents and aunt in the morning,
then watch drama.
internet was kinda shit and so i didn't do much online.

wednesday;
i woke at 11.45am,
had my breakfast, watch tv till 1pm,
and studied 1.5 chapter of wireless.

look at the calendar and felt guilty for awhile;
exam is in less than two weeks time,
and i'm still stuck in studying wireless,
still have 3 more chapters to finish up for wireless,
and a whole load of shit that i don't know for networking.

in less than 2 weeks to prepare for 2 idiotic exam paper,
i just wish the holiday is here fast.
i'm feeling damn tired.

2010-08-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

@2.21pm.
i'm feeling too tired.

2010-08-21T14:12:00.002+08:00

i promised myself that i will study for my exams,
but i slept the whole freaking afternoon off yesterday,

and when i'm blogging now, i keep looking at the time,
it's 2.14pm now,
and i told myself, i will study at 2.30pm.

i always think that time after lunch is the hardest to get over with,
because when you feel so full after lunch,
you feel that your eye lids are so freaking heavy,
and you just wanna jump into bed and have a nice afternoon nap.

i seriously find it hard to endure,
the whole process of staying awake and trying not to think about the bed,
forcing all the freaking theory into the brain,
it's killing me.

i know that i can't let myself touch the sheets,
because it will be evening the moment i open my eyes again,
i feel like shit now,
fcuk! i'm freaking sleepy and the time now is 2.19pm;

i think i will start studying after i post this,
so i can chase those sleepy worms away,

2010-08-19T20:44:00.002+08:00

tuesday;
i met jervois and eng huat for dinner,
i last minute just text jervois for the meeting,
because i wanna pass them their birthday present
it's way overdue for almost a week.

wednesday;
i stay home and intend to study for my exams
and i did study,
i study 1.5 chapters of wireless and felt so freaking sleepy halfway,
but i didn't went to take a nap,
instead, i watched tv; which i totally didn't feel sleepy at all.
amazing huh?

thursday;
i study for another 1.5 chapters of wireless,
and i watch tv after that.
now, i'm gonna watch my ruien.

2010-08-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

2010-08-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

i went to the doctor again yesterday.
and the doctor gave me a stronger cough syrup.
i had my blood test too,
will receive the result within a week.

i had durian with my grandparents
and i cough like hell at night.
i thought i would cough out my lungs.
thanks man.

i realised; people pronounce my name differently.
from MAVIS to may-vis; ma-vis; mel-vis;
seriously i think may-vis is the right way to pronounce it,
because that is what my dad calls me.
but my mum calls me mel-vis;
my grandparents call me Baby.
sam calls me either MAY or VIS.

i'm feeling random.
and i don't know what am i talking about

2010-08-10T16:12:00.002+08:00

i stayed home and watched tv since 10am yesterday,
went for a hair cut and chop off 1 inch of my hair,
and rush home to sit in front of the tv at 5.30pm for the NDP.

i don't know why,
but whenever i hear the national anthem during the NDP,
i always feel so touched and it makes me wanna cry.
seriosuly, i don't know what's wrong with me.
but i just feel so proud. honestly and seriously.
proud being a Singaporean and glad living in Singapore;
although required education is too much and the weather is so idiotic,
it either rain heavily or shine "hot-ly" like no ones business
but there is no other place that makes you feel so safe and near the hearts.

okie, i love Singapore... weeeeee

2010-08-08T17:20:00.002+08:00

wednesday, waited for about 2 hours to get some help from the software teacher,
but he is too busy with the others.
so i left to see the doctor.
and i've tonsil infection.

thursday was my last day for the semester,
but the day didn't end as how it should be as the last day of school,
@ 4pm, i'm still rushing to get my software design project done.
total disaster.
but thank god! lingyong helped and i got everything done.
he's always my saver for codings.

friday, i drag my half dead body to accompany my aunty to the supermarket;
then had medicine and slept the whole freaking afternoon.

saturday, had steamboat at grandma house because it's her birthday.

sunday, i watched tv almost for the whole day and i got bored;
so i'm here blogging.

2010-08-01T12:34:00.003+08:00

how much will you be willing to do to make everything alright?