beautiful promise

Friday, July 16, 2010 / 12:27 PM

i went back to school on FRIDAY,
and the thought about it makes me feel so sick.
i totally hate it when i knew that is a NO SCHOOL day for me,
but i have to drag my half dead body to school just for the project,

i reached about 1 plus and stayed till 10.
till the very end, i found all kind of shit error popping out;
and i just wanna kill myself for that,

i woke up at 9 in the morning,
waiting for syahrul who said that he's coming over at 10,
but only turn up at about 12.
i was so freaking pissed,
but he helped me to solve all my errors and he did finish his part,
so i forgive him :)
hahaha.

i swear IA is totally a killer,
and i really wish i could do well for this project,
cause i did pretty good for the term test,
i really don't wanna get a C at the end of the day
just because i didnt do well for my project.
so i take it to heart very very much.

hopefully the nightmare ends on monday after the demo,
although i'm still pack with software design and database,
but at least i know i have time for it.

however it highly depends on my team mates present.
because i really don't know that drama queen ANGIE,
has what drama excuses in her mind that she can come up with to fake her way through for not doing much for the project.
lying about having high fever and later we found out from your blog that you didn't come to school all because you watch world cup till 5AM and thinking that the lesson is not so important.
totally what the fuck.
and lying about you "almost want to faint"
seriously, if you were to tell me this excuse at my face,
i make sure i slap your freaking face till you really faint.

honestly, i always gave you the benefit of doubt
but when we found out that you lied your way through everything,
i just find myself stupid enough to have trust you that you were really sick.
and looking at you, i feel so disgusted.
i really hope you chance upon this blog and know that i'm actually bitching about you,
i seriously hope you can reflect on your actions,
and think why people are starting to show you attitudes and not willing to help you with your project.
i didn't hate you at all at first, but now, i'm starting to.

and if your boyfriend is so attracted to you, please get him to tie you down,
get married, stay at home, give birth to 12 kids and be a busy mum so you wont have time to look at other guys.
*honestly, you're not like the MISS WORLD, that makes people wanna take a second look at.
so i really have no idea why he's so insecure being with you.
and if you think that he makes up your world,
get him to sit with you 24/7 and do all your project with you rather than having us with you to do the project.

if you think i'm in the wrong that i'm bitching you behind you,
think again and be glad that i'm still willing to bitch about you.
because talking to you reminds me of all the lies you have said.

i wish that you're always in good health
so you won't miss school and give reasons that you don't understand what i'm talking about during project discuss,
and i hope i can do my part by praying hard for you.
may God bless you...