beautiful promise

Thursday, December 31, 2009 / 9:03 PM

today marks the last day of 2009.
and it really scares me when is not just that days flies,
but with a blink, this year is coming to an end.

so i'm gonna summarize my year 2009.
practically nothing big happens but rather a smooth sailing year for me.
which i'm somehow grateful for.

lots, in fact tons of small things happened here and there,
and i learnt many things.

i cried hard.
i understood the pain of losing your love ones.
and then i realised, it was a relief that they left.
because they could end those miserable days of life which they left no control over.

i laugh hard.
over small and little things which i used to not pay attention to
then realised, actually many things could be so much simple.

i understood.
i will have to work hard in order to achieve what i want.
and the more freedom i get, the more i need to do to pay it off.

i realised.
is not the world that is cruel, but is the people around that make me finally realised how ugly people can become.

i preferred.
the me now as compared the me that i used to be.

i met.
lovely people which is always there and willingly to help with no complains,
brighten up my days with simple gestures and make me smile like a little kid.
and of course shitty people too.
which makes me wanna slap them at their face.

i missed.
some people that used to appear in my life, standing a important place in me
and have disappear.
they are the flowers and bees i met along the garden of life which i have walked by them.
they may or may not reappear in my life again. but i thank them for being there once.

i left.
the silly part of myself behind with the silly things i used to do
and now laugh at myself, thinking how silly and dumb i used to be.

i appreciated.
the things people have been doing for me unconditionally,
the love that they have been showering me with,
the patient they have given me,
the support they have shown me,
the encouragement they have given me.
a big thank you just for you.

these are the little parts and bits that make up my year 2009.

i hope nothing but a blissful and simple year for me in 2010.