beautiful promise

to those it may concern ...

Wednesday, January 10, 2007 / 4:19 PM

i was wonderin whether am i thinkin simply too much but i simply just feel tat u r simply talkin abt me ... nothing i could feel but simply DISAPPOINTED !!! i said it before , it was just a judgement tat i blog it out from wat i see ... tell me if im ever wrong like how jacqueline did , she told me everything tat she have to say me tat she feel tat im just simply being unfair by wat i had said abt u guys de action ... yes ! i agreed with wat she said and i admit tat im just bein over defend for lye yee ... yes !!! i said SORRY too !!! wat said and done , u cant expect anything from me anymore ... i said SORRY for watever i had said wrongly or had put the judgement wrongly ... CORRECT me if u ever see me wrong ... and the reason was simple why i blog the judgement out is because all i felt was UNFAIR for lye yee ... tat all ... NOTHING ELSE ... and i did not mean to be sound so serious but it was just the unfair tat makes me so pissed off ... tat all ... u claimed tat SHE IS YOUR FRIEND !!! AND SHE IS FALLIN INTO MY TRAP ? wat trap do i have to set to make ppl fall into ? and wat is the purpose of the trap ? to tell ppl tat i am actually a very nice person ? and u claimed tat SHE IS YOUR FRIEND ... from where do u see tat ppl will treat friends this way ... leaving her all alone ? omg ... i just cant figure it out ... i understand jacqueline's explaination tat she is feelin this way and tat is why she is treatin lye yee this way ... den wat is yours ? i just dun get the wholr picture rite ... since u claimed tat she is ur friend ... have u ever did a part as wat a friend should ever do ... ?

i am not a devil wearin a angel's mask ... and y should i ever do tat ... i agree with wat u say ... i may be a devil but why would i ever wan a angel's mask over me ... DO U UNDERSTAND ME TAT WELL ? if im not wrong ... u just got to noe me last year !! u simply just dun noe who i am actually rite ... so now who is puttin tat judgement now ... ?

u only see the bad in me because you saw my blog talkin abt u and ur company ...but have u forseen my good ones ? or u simply just forget all abt them ... to be just very frank ... i wasnt very willin to be there for u when u boke up with ur ex boifriend and u had some misunderstandin or wat so ever with jacqueline ... i cant remember them ... because firstly , im not very close to u ... and secondly ... i wasnt in the mood to ... because i also broke up with my boifriend too !! u see it ... im hurt enough and yet i have to put things aside to console u ... and see wat ? u r perfectly fine now and u r havin a new date now ... but how abt me ? have i even shed a tears infront of you and wantin to kill myself or hurt myself just for a stupid guy ... get things clear gal ...

and i nv backstab u guys at all ... but i dun noe why u said tat ... ? do u wanna face to face chat with me tellin me when and where did i ever backstab u ... and i also dun noe how u define the word "backstab" ... but to me ... backstab is only done when i am talkin something tat is untrue of u ... but since where and when did i ever did tat to u ????

maybe u may sound curious why am i DISAPPOINTED with wat u said ... simply because u nv get the clear picture of wat is goin on and y did i ever put tat comment ... and u nv stand in my postion to think why would i ever say those things ? i reflected on mine action after jacqueline told me those things ... so how abt u ? will u also reflect on ur action after u read abt my blog ? or after ur friendd told u abt my blog ?

i can simply understand y u were so pissed off with me and with those things i wrote in my blog ... because u also feel tat it is unfair for u ... and yap ... i agree with wat jacqueline said ... i am just over defend lye yee only ... and i nv thought of things whould get so hot up after the blog was published ... and in the later part of my blog ... i also said sorry for makin things sound so serious ... am i rite ?

okie , fine with everything ... i just dun noe how to make myself to carry on with this blog ... but overall i understand how u felt abt me writin abt u this way ... is okie ... hate with with watever u wan ... u gain nothing ... but maybe u wanna look back on wat u said in ur blog ... and i think all u could see is wat i did wrongly ... so how abt those little things i did tat is right ... or u simply just forseen them ? it just leave a question mark to me ... sigh ...